During the course of some of my days, I would occasionally become aware of a random thought entering my already busy mind. The thought would seem to be unrelated to whatever I was doing or thinking about at that moment. No real specific time of the day...really, just random.
Sometimes I would wake up with these random thoughts. Were they a continuation of a dream that I was having during my sleeping hours? Did they just come about when I was transitioning from sleeping to rousing to being fully awake? I don't know and I usually don't spend much time actually thinking about 'the why'. I just allow it or them to stay for a moment and then, they are off...usually just fleeting and gone...poof...
Occasionally after a seemingly random thought, I would be left with an all-consuming residual feeling that would remain with me for varying amounts of time. This feeling was either a pleasant feeling that would make me smile and feel lighter or an unpleasant feeling that would leave me feeling heavy and melancholy. When that would happen, I could actually physically feel that weight. I would usually feel that weight in and about my shoulders.
These residual feelings were generally about someone who had passed or someone from my past. Those thoughts are not very often about someone that I currently know, but usually about someone from my younger years. Sometimes I am surprised that I actually even remember the person that would come into my thoughts. I didn't even consciously believe that I had thought abut them in a very long time or, ever. I've known so many people in my always busy life, and my many careers. It is always interesting to me that when this person comes to mind, I can actually remember what they look like - from back in the day. I can remember what their voice sounded like. But mostly I remember how I felt about them and how they made me feel.
Maybe that's just how everyone's mind works...maybe all very normal...so, nothing further or deeper to think about...
But being the person that I am, I always think that things happen for reasons. Not always obvious initially...but eventually it all seems to make some sense. I give some weight to those thoughts and, I feel that when I am sensing and feeling those thought that I need to pay some attention to them. Not obsessively so.
If someone from my past is in my thoughts or dreams...I choose to believe it generally a good sign. I believe that sometimes when something is happening in a loved one's life...or, possibly that they are also thinking about me at that exact moment that there is that connection through a fleeting thought. I do not like when someone comes to mind and the thoughts feel heavy or serious...I usually will attempt to make contact with that person to make sure that all is well. Very often I will find out, upon contacting this person that initially they say that they are fine. But after some discussion they reveal that something is going on in their life or in their family that is troubling them. Many times, it is an illness, a loss or something of any variety of things that is not positive. Those things certainly happen more often as we age. It's good that it gives me an opportunity to contact and talk to them. I am not a professional anything...just a very good listener. I am a friend that has learned that listening can be just as beneficial as offering assistance or maybe even just a few words that many times were just what was needed to be said or heard.
When specific people that were important to me years ago are in my thoughts and I contact them (thank you face book) they will then for always remain in my bedtime thoughts and wishes. Every evening before I fall asleep, I go through the list of people that I love and then add these additional persons and their families to this list of everyday well wishes.
It's good for all of us to send positive thoughts out into the universe...solicited or not. The world needs as much positivity as possible. It just feels like the right thing to do. It always makes me feel better and hopefully assists someone in some way that I care about or really anyone, with their lives.
Sending positive thoughts and wishes to anyone that I know or have not yet had the pleasure of knowing but are taking a moment to read my Blogs...I thank you.
