I've been working on this book for the last few months. Rather than a short description of what the book entails, I compiled a few excerpts from the book for this blog...hope you enjoy.
An Enlightening Possibility of the
Hereafter… that Might just Help a Grieving Heart feel a bit Lighter….
So….
I BELIEVE…
Well, long
story short, I died. After a rather
lengthy, painful and totally unfair illness, I quietly slipped away at my family
home. I felt blessed to have my husband,
children and a good friend with me as my journey on this earth ended. My sweet husband of 20 years held my hand
and gently touched my forehead and told me that everything was okay, that they would be alright. He kept telling
me that he loved me, and, would always love me.
Our three daughters held on to each other, crying. Our youngest daughter had our dog, Scruffy in
her arms and was squeezing him, just trying to hold onto something. They were all so frantic. I actually wanted to leave quickly to put an
end to this last painful stage and allow the healing to begin for my family as
soon as possible.
The day of the
graveside service was not exactly as I would have liked, it was overcast and spitting
a steady, cold drizzle, so miserable for everyone. From my position, I could see quite a few black
umbrellas, and a spot of color right in the middle, which was my umbrella. I pictured one of my daughter’s bringing it
and holding the handle very tightly just like we would do when we’d run in the
rain from the car to the store or school.
I could see that it was my oldest
daughter holding onto the handle. I
really did not want to die during the darker, depressing winter season. I knew it would make it harder and more
depressing for everyone. But as I have
learned during the last year of my life, there are so many things that are not
within your control. So, here I am,
watching my own funeral. When our
minister stopped talking and gave the final blessing, everyone moved rather quickly
to their cars to escape the cold drizzle and also the dark, depressing cemetery. My wishes were for all to go to a restaurant
that I picked out for a luncheon. I
wanted everyone I loved to be surrounded by others to talk about all of the
good times that we shared and hopefully smile and maybe even laugh.
As the cars
rolled into the restaurant parking lot for the luncheon, I felt myself being gently
pulled back. The view was dimming, it
was as if my eyes were closing, the dark day was getting darker.
Suddenly, my
eyes were wide open, I could see everything clearly and I could also hear
voices and sounds. I was standing in a long line holding a clipboard. I noticed that above a doorway at the front of
this long line, there was a sign that read “The Waiting Room.” The
line moved rather slowly and I understood why when I finally reached a chair in
The Waiting Room. I was handed a 10 page
packet which I clipped onto the board.
There was a pencil attached for our use.
On the top of the packet it said, “To be completed in it’s entirety”. As I slide into a chair, a few of the seated individuals
looked up and appeared to be about my age.
They would smile and then go back to filling out the papers on their
clipboards. I wonder if one of the
initial steps is to be divided into age groups.
There are signs everywhere….Be
Patient, We will be with You as soon as Possible, You are Very Important to Us. Shaking my head, I’m thinking, this is not at all how I pictured
my “Transition.” Standing in a long line for quite awhile and then being directed to a chair, given
a clipboard with a pencil attached and a long form "To be filled out in it’s
entirety.” I always thought that I’d magically
earn beautiful fluffy angel wings and just float around in a beautiful white,
‘heavenly’ place somewhere up in the endless cloud world. Apparently not, well not at this stage
anyway.
